Note: I’ve included a lot of links in this post because I wanted to take you on a journey. It’s one thing to describe what I heard or experienced, it’s another to give you examples so you can hear and see for yourself and hopefully understand what the hell I’m going on about. Hopefully all the links work, but please let me know if they aren’t.
Introduction
Anyone who knows me (and I mean genuinely knows me) knows that I have a serious passion for music. Not in a casual ‘I listen to Top 40 on my way to work’ or ‘I love that one album by that one band’ way. I mean music is my religion. From the fun, upbeat pop sounds of Charli XCX or CHVRCHES, to the metal stylings of Anthrax or Slayer; from the brooding soundscapes of Lustmord to the jazzy big band sounds of Benny Goodman and his orchestra, there’s very little that I can’t find to appreciate in any genre of music. Admittedly there are always some genres I enjoy more than others, and some artists and bands I prefer to others in their respective fields. I’ll always prefer a song by The Chameleons to one by The Chainsmokers, but I believe my broad interest and acceptance of music of all kinds is an admirable quality I have, even though I was once made to feel ashamed of it. So how did I come to be so passionate about music in general?
Part One: The Devil’s Music
As a young child in the early 80s, I only had limited exposure or interest in popular music. I might catch a snippet of a Michael Jackson video on the TV, or hear a Supertramp song playing on the radio, or even a musical act on an episode of The Kenny Everett Video Show that dad had recorded on VHS, but most of the songs I was listening to in those days were of the Play School variety. My parents did have a collection of vinyl records that they’d play. Most were from the 60s: The Beatles, Creedance Clearwater Revival, Peter Green’s Fleetwood Mac and so forth. A few were from the 70s like Jeff Wayne’s Musical Version of The War of the Worlds (an album that both fascinated me and creeped me out, especially with the vivid watercolour illustrations of destruction that came with the album), but almost nothing from the 80s onwards. The only two 80s albums they had were Phil Collins’ Face Value from 1981 and Roxy Music’s Avalon from 1982. Both albums got a lot of play from my mother, but other than that it felt like the music of the 80s were largely unwelcome in our house.
I’ve mentioned before how I came from a conservative Christian household, and around this time there was a hysterical religious conspiracy theory called the Satanic Panic. Basically it was a belief, perpetrated by religious fundamentalists in the US, that claimed there was a sinister underground group of powerful devil worshipers who were trying to take over the world through a combination of ritual sacrifice of children (many day care centers were falsely accused of being a front for Satanic cults practicing child sacrifice), controlling governments (usually through the UN, somehow) and through infiltration of popular culture to covertly influence people, especially children, to follow Satan. Mum was a fervent watcher of American televangelists like Jimmy Swaggart and was convinced that letting in certain forms of entertainment into our household would cause us to fall the forces of the evil one. Dungeons & Dragons was banned, of course, as was He-Man and the Masters of the Universe, Voltron, certain episodes of Doctor Who, and Heinz Spooky Spaghetti, because apparently eating pasta shapes depicting pumpkins, ghosts and black cats was the first step to joining a witch’s coven. My father was less convinced of a vast demonic conspiracy as my mother was, and tended to do his own thing regardless, like watching watching the music and current affairs show Beatbox, (possibly this episode) despite mum’s disapproval of bringing such worldly corruption into our house.
Of course, music was another big focus of the Satanic Panic, and I learned about how evil much of it was. There was backmasking, based on the belief that songs contained hidden backward messages from Satan himself that unconsciously influenced listeners, to artists like Alice Cooper, Ozzy Osbourne, Led Zeppelin and AC/DC being agents of the devil. Even ‘Hotel California‘ by The Eagles was claimed by some preachers to be about joining the Church of Satan, and apparently its founder Anton LaVey could be found in the album artwork (it isn’t, and he can’t). At the time, I had no reason to believe otherwise. I went to a strictly fundamentalist school and church, and my indoctrination into this mindset meant that I believed whatever my adult authority figures told me. So this music must be evil. Yet, my parents still listened to those vinyl records from the 60s and 70s. Therefore in my mind I determined that it was 80s music that was evil. Never mind that many of those bands like Led Zeppelin and The Eagles were from the 60s and 70s themselves; in my mind all rock and pop music was completely innocent until the midnight of the 31st of December, 1979, and then every rock and pop star, their agents, promoters, studio crew, roadies and record label suddenly signed their souls to Satan en masse. It seemed logical: dad listened to The Beatles and their squeaky-clean upbeat songs like ‘She Loves You‘ and ‘Love Me Do‘ (I wasn’t aware until later of their LSD-influenced material from Revolver onwards, when they apparently were led astray by ‘evil’ Eastern mysticism and such), while mum listened to nice music like The Supremes. What were my peers listening to? Poison, who had an album out with a cover that looked like this:
For a child who was so traumatised by fear of diabolic forces that I couldn’t sleep with the light off for fear of demons lurking in the dark, this image, which constantly came up on television advertisements for the album, was disturbing to me, and the fact that all the kids I knew not only didn’t mind this cover but even loved the band and their music was proof to me that modern music had corrupted them. Even a song like ‘Bad Medicine‘ by Bon Jovi sounded evil to me, despite how tame it sounds now.
It must’ve been around 1989 that I started to relax a bit and not see all modern music as evil incarnate. I think I was in the house of one of my parents’ friends, and their children had the Top 40 music video show Video Hits playing, and some of the music seemed… okay. Not evil. I mean, Alice Cooper did still seem evil, but Richard Marx, Paula Abdul and Martika seemed not so dangerous. I slowly began to relax from my hysterical crusade against the evils of rock music, though I still wasn’t really into it. Things would change the following year.
Part Two: 100% Hits
I must admit I’m not sure why I took a sudden interest in popular music in 1990. I can remember where I was: I was sitting in the family room one Saturday morning and Video Smash Hits was playing the latest videos. Normally I’d change the channel but there must’ve been no cartoons or anything that would interest me on the other stations. So I casually started watching, and I think about a few videos in they were playing a Taylor Dayne video, and suddenly I got it. I felt that vibe that others felt when their favourite song comes on the radio. Maybe I felt something, like some warm familiarity about the music, that attracted me to it. 1990 was a tough year for me, and perhaps in my loneliness I felt some comfort in music that I couldn’t find at home, school, church or anywhere. In any case, I started to take an active interest in the latest music charts and what songs and bands were popular.
My newfound interest in modern music put me into conflict with my parents several times. Neither had any interest in music much past 1980, and dad in particular seemed to have made up his mind that all music past that year was awful, no exceptions, and he would put down my musical tastes whenever possible. It was almost as though he felt like it was his role as a father to make sure there was a generation gap, even though there was really no need for one. I can remember in late 1991 we finally got a CD player, because vinyl was considered an obsolete format and CDs were the future (ironically, these days its the exact opposite with vinyl making a huge comeback). It was coming up to Christmas, and I knew what I wanted as a gift: a compilation album called Hits 4U ’92. On Christmas Day I fully expected to open my present and start playing my favourite hits, but instead found that my parents had decided to buy me something else: The Best ofStatus Quo. Now, I’m not knocking Status Quo, they’ve put out goodmusic over the years, but when I was expecting a present of music that appealed to me and instead received something that was more in line with my parents’ choice of music, I felt a tad disappointed and confused. My parents noticed my disappointment and immediately went on the attack, calling me ungrateful and threatening to take the CD player back to the shop while I sat there in tears. It later turned out that my uncle had bought Hits 4U ’92 as a present for me, so I did receive it in the end, but the experience did show me that my parents had little time for my interests, and would rather I conformed to their own musical tastes.
With a new way to play my favourite music, I would use my limited pocket money to buy my own record collection. With CDs back then costing on average $AU30 and me earning perhaps near that much a month, I was often limited in what I could purchase. Compilation albums were a good choice if I wanted to listen to the latest radio hits on repeat at my leisure, such as 100% Hits Vol. 6 which contained the classic Baby Got Back by Sir Mix-A-Lot, a song I enjoyed but knew my mum would disapprove of so I would often listen covertly. I didn’t just limit myself to just recent Top 40 songs though. Around 1991 Michael Jackson was making waves with his album Dangerous, and particularly with his groundbreaking video for ‘Black or White‘, but I decided to purchase his classic 1982 album Thriller, mostly on the strength of ‘Beat It‘ (a song I remembered from my earliest years) and, of course, the title track. I also purchased The Best of R.E.M. as it was around the time ‘Losing My Religion‘ was getting constant airplay (I remember feeling a bit disappointed that the song wasn’t on that compilation). Other compilation albums like Counting the Beat, a collection of new wave hits from the late 70s and early 80s, and Video Hits Australian Classics, which featured various Australian hits mainly from the 70s and 80s, introduced me to other songs and artists that, while not contemporary, were outside my parents’ scope of music, and exposed me to a wider range of sounds in an era before curated Spotify playlists. I remember even hearing the song ‘Hocus Pocus‘ by 70s progressive rock band Focus on a compilation tape, and while my parents didn’t care for it, I thought it was an absolutely amazing and crazy piece of hard rock that was unlike anything I had heard anywhere ever. Even at such an early age I was finding myself open to new sounds and not being limited by genre or by when a song was recorded, which was something other kids around me seemed less open to..
At this time, however, I wouldn’t say that I was fanatical about music. I liked it, and wasn’t afraid to expand my horizons a little, but I was highly unlikely to go seeking anything unfamiliar out, or do something brave like go to a concert or a festival. My tastes were still largely informed by what I heard on the radio or by the music videos on the weekend morning chart shows. I continued to clash with dad who would often when he heard my music would come out to insult the songs I was listening to, often decrying how stupid myself and my entire generation were for liking this over his ‘real’ music (we didn’t have the phrase ‘OK Boomer’ back the, unfortunately). As I began entering my teenage years, I started to watch more of the late night music programs, which would often play music videos that you wouldn’t normally see on the G-rated morning shows. There were a few around in those days, with probably the biggest being MTV, which wasn’t a specific music channel back then in the days before pay-TV in Australia, but instead was a three-hour block of weekend programming featuring music videos, news and interviews, hosted by Richard Wilkins. But there was an even bigger music program, still running to this day, that in many ways influenced my music tastes going forward.
Part Three: Raaaaaaaaaaaaage!
For those outside Australia who haven’t heard of it,Rage is a late night/early morning music video show that has been running on the ABC since 1987. On Friday nights through to the early hours of Saturday morning they would often play the latest music videos: not necessarily the most popular tunes, or the most marketable, just the latest. As such I was introduced to new releases from acts that I hadn’t heard elsewhere before: The Butthole Surfers, Ministry, Metallica, and many other acts that might eventually find their way onto commercial radio and the charts, but for that moment were a completely new discovery for me. Then on Saturday night through to Sunday morning they’d have something else: sometimes a special dedicated to the videos of one artist, or themed around a specific genre of music, but usually they had a ‘guest programmer‘ on who would choose their favourite music videos and talk about why they chose those videos and why they were inspired by them. The guest programmers were often musicians: sometimes Australian artists like Dave Faulkner of the Hoodoo Gurus or Michael Hutchence from INXS, other times visiting international artists like Elvis Costello or The Beastie Boys would come in and program their favourite videos followed by a collection of their own music videos. Once the clock hit 6am Rage would switch to showing the latest Top 50 videos much like the other G-rated morning chart shows, but that part of the show was never important to me; it was the guest programming portion of the program that influenced me. Depending on the individual tastes of the guest programmers themselves, I was introduced to a selection of artists and songs that, although clearly influential to the artists themselves, I personally hadn’t heard anywhere else. I had never heard or seen the video for ‘The Message‘ by Grandmaster Flash & The Furious Five before; despite it’s importance in the history of rap and hip hop it was never played on the commercial stations. The same could be said for videos for ‘I’m Stranded‘ by The Saints, an early example of Australian punk rock, or songs by Jane’s Addiction, Joy Division, anything by NickCave, Tom Waits, Sonic Youth, Pixies and so many others that were first introduced to me by watching Rage.
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2 thoughts on “How I Became A Music Fanatic”
Assuming WordPress doesn’t continue to think I’m a spam bot, this should work.
Great post, though. Enjoyed it a bunch. Emailed you the comment I meant to send originally, was gonna properly post it here, but I’m trying to avoid tripping the brute force protection again.
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